.Basket.Case.

It's 7:56 AM, and I just had a minor case of morning sickness. It's one of the most disgusting things, and it hurts like crazy but it's well worth it. Eric and I had a long conversation lastnight, and there was a ton of emotion involved and I realized that he's one of the greatest guys any girl can have. He's so understanding, and..he's going to be a great father. I was having doubts lastnight about raising this child with him-for not so important reasons...and he told me that he's not leaving no matter what. Heh....He grew up without a father and doesn't want this baby to grow up without one either. It's amazing. I'm excited about sharing this, and my life with Eric. I'm going to ask my sister today if him and I can go live with her for the summer so that we can be together. After that and we save up money, we're going to see if we can't stay somewhere else so that we can raise this baby together, rather than me by myself or him. It'd be a lot easier...and the baby's life would be a lot better too. Ugh...I guess I see now when they say that a baby takes over your life. I'll never be the same again. Lastnight I was looking in the mirror..and my tummy is already starting to show, and it makes me happy. I may be young...and this is already wicked hard on me, but I'm going to make it..and I wont break down because even if it is a little harder than I had expected, I know I'll do everything in my power to make this baby's life as good as I can. I'm looking forward to always being here for him/her...and help them with situations that I've probably too been through and have them not believe me and totally go against what I said to do..:)...It's going to be fun. I hope Eric is still as excited as I am. He's going to be a wonderful daddy. I cleaned my room lastnight with Tiffany, and I put my big bed in here and now every time I look next to my bed I imagine the basinet(?) there...and I grow excited. Yes, I'm extremely scared...and I'm afraid of what might happen, and Im worrying that my baby isn't going to be healthy..but I'm sure everything is going to be fine. Like my sister says, expect the worst but hope for the best...Which is what I plan on doing. I'm kind of nervous about breast feeding though..heh, it's going to be a new experience for me. Haha..it's crazy because my boobs hurt already, and they're not even close to being as sore as they're going to be. Ugh..I'm so excited. I talk to my baby all the time...it feels so good. The three of us are going to be a great family! Hehe...Everything is going to be alright.